When I started crying in Wegman's today, I really wasn't surprised. I knew a breakdown was coming...it was bound to happen. The best part is that I really don't think today was it - just the beginning of what might be a couple of weeks filled with tears. I am missing home - badly!
It all began earlier this week when we visited the Philadelphia Zoo - the girls and I much enjoyed it, but couldn't help be reminded of some of our trips to the Atlanta Zoo with our best pals. Then the girls asked to eat at Chick-fil-A for lunch and play on the playground there. Not an impossible task here, just very out of the way on the day that they were asking for it and it is in a mall, so no playground. My car has needed a bath for a while, so I was hoping to swing through a drive-thru car wash. However, I couldn't find a drive-thru car wash anywhere around me. Not a big deal, right? Just go to the full service place with the girls and have it done - which we did. And to add on to it, we went to open house at Avery's school and she and I both felt like the new girls, which we were. So, when the tears came pouring while buying her school snacks for this upcoming week, I embraced it and let them roll down my cheeks. I know that with her starting school on Monday means that the house gets a little quieter. Then Madeline will start a few weeks after and I will be left alone with my thoughts and emotions - scary! I don't think this lump in throat is going anywhere for a while. I miss my Woodlawn Chick-fil-A, BP car wash, Publix diet sweet tea, sitting in church traffic going to and from the little yellow church I adore - and more than anything, I miss my family and friends!
My wonderful neighbor, E, has been a God-send. When she invited the girls and I to a picnic at the park this past week with some of her friends and then to the movies Friday afternoon with her and another fellow southern belle, it was music to my ears. I needed to get away from my self and my "bah-humbugness". It reminds me of the song I learned as a young girl - "Make new friends, but keep the old...One is silver and the other gold". Just those few dates with other ladies and kids are helping me tremendously. Seeing the girls laughing and playing with new pals reminds me that they are happy and adjusting well, which is so important. And girl talk for me is much needed - saving my sanity these days! To say we hit the neighbor jackpot is an understatement!
Not to make this all a pity party for myself - I mean I did have a choice in this move! Just hearing the girls laughing while Hubby is playing with them and watching them sit outside in the afternoons, awaiting his return home from work are reminder enough of why we are on the roller coaster! Having us all together helps me wipe away the tears and get on with things.
Is it Thanksgiving yet?????? Can't wait to come home!
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